I have been around long enough that knowing what I want should be easy.
It is not.
I want Joy in my heart. I want to do my best and improve every day. I want to make art that lasts longer than a meal. I want my children to be good people. I want His Spirit to be with me always. I want intangibles like security and stability, neither of which are in my nature and seem to be beyond my choices.
I know that today I cried. It was both good and sad. As I move forward I need to remember the good and take that with me as a reminder of His will. I need to strive harder to pray and read my scriptures to have Joy in my heart. I will walk with thee…
Please hold my hand.