Have I done any good in the world today?

When you find yourself home bound with limited energy and an inability to connect with people face to face, answering this question is very hard.  Everything in my life is different now. I desperately want to engage with people, but if I do I put my health at risk.  I used to serve daily; I [...]


Speed 1

I remember my first big bike, it was a powder blue ten speed with the curved handles wrapped in powder blue tape.  It was a great bike, it took me everywhere I wanted to go and gave me a freedom I didn’t previously have.  I could take it to the park or a nearby field [...]

The Day I Stop Reading Others’ Words

I love to read, and re-read, I fill my time with the words and visions of others.  I get a great deal of joy from it, but it is a bit of an escape from the struggles in my life. Maybe that is wrong thinking. Today (2/25/2017) I will begin to fully feel my struggles.  [...]



I have been thinking.  With my necessity to avoid fragrance of any kind (deodorant, perfume, cologne or Febreze for example) I feel a bit like a goldfish in a fish bowl; I have my family with me, some water and a rocky bottom that is sometimes a bit unstable to stand on.  I am separate [...]


How can I step outside of myself when life is hard?

In the past when life was hard I would step away from my struggles by serving others.  I  would seek to listen to the Holy Ghost, to find opportunities to go and do.  To help make someone else's day better even if mine wasn't.  Through the process I would feel happier and sometimes gain a [...]


Dear Doctor,

Dear Doctor, I understand that you have worked hard to learn and know everything required to become a doctor.  You may also have years of experience to support what you know.  I respect all the effort and time you have put into this. BUT ~ I don't know you. Trust takes time to build and [...]


Am I Chronically Ill?

Yes, I am. How did that happen?  I was well.  I remember it.  July 30th, 2016 was my last 'normal' day. Will my health improve?  I have hope it will, but every day is a battle right now. The doctor keeps telling me that this could take years and to be patient. The result of [...]